My name is Jenny. I am 26 years old and I live in Toronto, Canada. I am starting this blog because I've decided that by writing out my drinking experiences and feelings, they may become more real to me and motivate me to seek help, while reaching out to others in the same prediciment.
I have been drinking for about 10 years. Heavily for about 5. I call myself high functioning because I have a good job, an apartment, a dog and a cat who I take well care of, and very supportive friends and family. (Although I have lost friends because of my drinking.)
There is a world of me beyond heavy partying, a sad and lonely world that not many people see, where the bottle is my best friend and the only thing that keeps me sane. This blog will be a glimps into that world, what it's like for someone who has a problem and yet has to function in the normal world and pretend they don't. I will write when I am sober, hungover and drinking. I will write when I am happy, sad and numb.
Welcome to my hell.
Damn this blog is depressing. I guess that's the point. To go back and read it when I feel the urge and the need to drink. Did I really feel like that? I don't even remember. Now I guess it's finally time to deal with the feelings and the pain that cause the self medication. Without the self medication. Oh dear, this could get messy....
1 comment:
jenny I lllove you!!!!
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